I am doing something I haven't had the courage to do in over ten years. I am trying to get off my depression meds. I originally was put on Effexor for Postpartum Depression six weeks after my daughter was born. She is ten and a half now. In that time, my depression got worse, my meds changed, my husband cheated on me, emotionally abused me and worse. Now I am divorced, I found a job that I love, and I am in a relationship that is going well. I'm happy! I can honestly say overall I am happy. Sure at the moment I have no money, I actually have negative money. That sucks but it isn't crippling. I am having medical issues, hopefully it won't end up as cancer. As of now it is just abnormal cells and bleeding. Again it sucks, but I am still happy.
So I went to my doctor and I got my dosage of Cymbalta reduced. Hopefully I can start skipping doses in a few weeks and eventually not take them at all. I have to see the doctor more, but hey I have medical issues anyway and I actually like my doctor. 
The only drawback is the side effects. When I don't take my meds, and that has happened occasionally, my brain feels mushy. That is an odd description and the only way I can explain it is to imagine your brain is made of Play-Doh. Then think about how it would feel to have someone slowly massage and squish it. I'm not real dizzy, but it almost a dizzy feeling. Honestly what I am looking for the most in never feeling that again!
Summer is half over so if I want to be off it by the time work starts again I have to do this now. So wish me luck. I need it. And if you happen to know a millionaire looking for a girlfriend send them my way. I can always hire my boyfriend as a poorboy. I am sure he would understand. Hopefully we will be in the Florida, Keys as well. It never hurts to have a dream, lol!
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