Have a surgery, a "routine procedure". My brother dropped me off and I was alone in the room as I was sliced and diced. No one was waiting for me when I was done. I waited patiently for him to come back and get me and when I got home I crawled into bed alone.
The guy I have been seeing for 9 months to the day of my "routine procedure" was in another city on vacation. Okay he had a cold and was miserable too, but I was not near the top of his list of priorities.
Nine months and I am not a real part of his life. Nine months and I have to have the talk with him. Let me in our let me go. I'm guessing that I will be on my merry way.
So here I am wanting to curl up in a ball confronted by a man. Even when I was married my ex wouldn't comfort me either. Maybe I crave it so much because I never had it. I ache and I am crampy and no one warned me about the grey ash color leaking out of me.
In this last years I sat alone as my mother died, I sat alone as every event happened. I'm alone and I hate it.
I have tried internet dating and I got nine months of an almost relationship. Now I want the real thing. Anyone know someone looking for a 47 year old decent person who is fun and a bit mischievous? If I get one more request from a 19 year old or anyone under 30 I will scream.
I just want to recover with someone holding me and telling me it will be alright!