I have had two job interviews in basically two days.  I found out today that I didn't get the first job, and I am okay with that.  They wanted someone in the infant room and I wanted a teaching position.  Today however I had a wonderful interview for a pre-school lead teacher position. I think it went very well and when I was observed interacting and reading to the children they seemed to love me.  All the children gave me hugs, that to me was a good sign.  I was interviewed by two different people and I think I answered their questions well.  I would have to move closer to the school and I am definitely okay with that. 
My soon to be ex did not react well when he found out how far away this position was.  Oddly when I checked the milage it is about as far away as his job is and that isn't a problem.  He already was in a bad mood because we had to give the car back to my brother.  They don't have a car for a few days and even though our car is near the end of its life it still runs.  It made sense to give them back the car for a couple of days until they too had reliable transportation.  Then he must be realizing that an option I have since I want a divorce is to move.  It is a free feeling to know I can apply anywhere for a job and move closer to the job once I am hired.
He starts to tell me that he isn't telling me no I can't take the job (Like I would let him have that power over me anymore?) but I probably shouldn't.  I do understand how he doesn't seem to understand that there is no we anymore.  Sometimes I have a hard time with it.  There are long stretches of time that I can almost believe things might be okay, then he acts like himself again and I remember. I know he is trying to control what job I accept and where I work.  
The facility is beautiful and in a country setting.  The interior is pristine and calm.  The classrooms are open and designed for the children to be able to move around comfortably.  No other classrooms I have ever seen have been this open.  They also have a the entrance designed to provide the children with a safe secure environment.  So please wish me luck and send some positive energy that I get this job.
Thoughts and observations of my life as I am going through mid-life changes. I am a mom dealing with depression, a child with Asperger's, an abusive ex-husband, plus moving back home with my parents to help take care of them and now my grandmother and both parent's death in just a fourteen month timespan. Simply put my house is full of chaos. As I start to walk this new path I will leave a trail of stories for you to follow. Thanks for traveling with me.


 
 
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